Week 2: finding my bliss

This week was tremendously busy to the point that I am disappointed in myself. I didn’t get much accomplished in the MKE🤔🤔🤔😐. I promised myself that it will never happen again even though it has happened to me so many times in the past….not getting around to doing what I actually want to do because of distractions.

This time it was work – a necessary distraction. I have to keep a roof over my head. But nonetheless, I will dig in my heels and fight back.  I love the program and the progress I have made. I especially love the progress I have made in one area of my relationships with one of my five sisters.

I was having a difficult time and I really wanted to see her. She lives a whole state away and I knew IF I called her, she wouldn’t come especially so late on a Monday day night.

Discouraged, I went to take a nap at 6 pm. My phone rang at 9:30 p.m. and it was my sister 🙂. I answered it. “I am trying to get to your house” she said to me.

“Where are you?” I asked.

“On Canton connector.” She replied

Whaaaaat?!?!?!?! Missiles we’re going off in my head. My sister Princess was in Georgia?!?!?!?!

“I can tell you how to get to me.” I told her. Then I ran around my house cleaning up and putting on clothes (I had on jammies) I was crazy! She was here by the time I was done brushing my teeth.

She gave me the best hug ever. She never come to Atlanta just to see me. It was a very pleasant surprise. She said I was on her mind heavy and the Spirit told her to come see me! (Wooooow)

We talked most of the night. For the first time in my life, I got a chance to tell her exactly how I felt about growing up the youngest of 23 critical siblings and parents.

It felt as if the layers of an onion were being peeled away. There was so much we both didn’t know. There was so much she didn’t know about me and until now, had never cared to know.

It was AWESOME for me because to hear myself talk about the pain of my childhood…there were things I didn’t realize about myself. Being allowed to just talk and not be told how I feel (my family is expert on telling people how they feel and think) was refreshing and liberating.

I awoke the next day refreshed and light. I felt totally and finally free as I hugged Princess goodbye as she got in her van to go back to Alabama.

ALL day I was talkative and all over the place. My clients noticed. Usually I am reserved and professional. NOT Monday!!! I was bright eyed and bushy tailed Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Laughing out loud! I am still somewhat floating. I believe I will be the rest of my life.

I really credit this process and program for this major success in my life. Normally we argue or don’t speak period. We all have been trying to listen to each other since our parents died. Much pain and tears and separation since. We have tried so so many times to no avail.

Monday Princess and I made a statement and a step in the right direction. I am so grateful; words cannot express.

Looking forward to week 3. I have cut out a lot of things that zap my time, like doing extra research for work. Next week, I will time it and not get lost in it. I will be back on point, expecting an AWESOME week.

Have a wonderful day and weekend! Love you lots!!! Hugs and kisses all day and forever!!!!

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Week 1: Oriented

This is a really cool experience. Even though I have had a little bit of a late start due prearranged appointments, I am pushing to get caught up and acclimated to this process.

The most difficult part so far, is training my brain to be positive ALL the time. I had no idea that I was so negative in my thought life. The second hardest part is deciding to let go.

I must admit it feels good to tell someone off that has crossed me. Especially when I do it in my mind which is 90% of the time. But I am a champ, so I will getterhhhhh DONE!!!!!

A lot of what I am hearing is done on other people platforms but I just simply like the way they present it better. Therefore,  the ideas are easier to follow and adhere to.

So with that, I look forward to a brand new me!